Kodie Smiley
Some of my earliest notable memories were of me questioning authority and structure, and more so than that, questioning absolution— anything that claimed its definitive end. I am consistently brought and being pulled into the paradox and cross nature of reality. Once a question seems within the scope of an answer, I find another question.
As I grew the questions became larger and enveloped my relationships outside of me. I knew how to question the world. now I wanted to understand this drive to question.
There is a word that seems to encompass this deep desire called “sonder”. Which is defined as “the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.”
This knowing befell me at a very young. It was apart of me and there is nothing I love more than being invited into the observation of another’s intricate consciousness. This knowing was a fascination. My wondering was an art form. It claims the moments in between my breath. An expression of God’s natural order occurring in pattern of chaos. So perfect in its disarray of harmony. A symphony of life.
I bring this drive and remembering to our Terra Nova community. I am here to artfully share the story of the messy imperfect dance of our lives intertwining with those who invite my “sondering” soul. I am here to be. To play. To laugh. To remember alongside my community that the path has been perfect as it brought us to this moment. I love to exclaim the perfect chaos of those I love and make them laugh at their own existence. I assure you I will do so as well.
This is my personal empowerment. Remembering this simple act of sonder has brought me to the dominion of my unique existence unlike any other that has ever lived.
This is my true joy and it is my purpose. It is what brought me here. And it is the cosmic mirror of perfection in form. Right now, as you are, every story and part and heart ache and joy.
When you are ready to see that perfection, so will I be.
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Kodie is a co-founder of Terra Nova and our resident community reflector.
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